Reflections on why

Shew, finished a big test today. Got another in a few days...

Now I could just think of all this as a drag and whine about not having enough free time (although i've found time for blogging! [ Who'd of thought this would be so intersting. { it's kind of like a community conversation/diary/email kinda thing. No existing names fit, so let's come up with a new, original, quirky name. How about "Blogging"? I think it could catch on. } ] )

Back to reality.

It's nice to feel enabled at work. Every page turned and problem solved is a skill that allows me to create nifty stuff at work. Not to mention increased job mobility and security. Better future for the family as long as I can keep my priorities straight and not neglect them in the mad flurry of activity.

It's kind of like the moments after you've just done something you've always dreaded a little and didn't know you'd be able to do. Relief. Elation. (a bit of pride?...) Even transformation.

I say all this because I grew up with the local, subtle, mindset that goes something like: "You can do anything you want to when you grow up." But the eyes of the speaker are somehow averted.

The subject gets changed quickly.

"College, well, if you get good grades."

It sounds rediculous now, but let me tell you, it kind of sticks somehow.
I just feel lucky to have gotten un-stuck somehow.
I only hope this region would stop with the under-achiever attitude, somehow.


Yadda yadda. enough about me.

But wait this is my blog!